Must. Not. Press. Thank you. Button. For. Luna. Mustn't. Ever. Agree. With. Luna. I. Can't. Take. It. Much. Longer. No! Oh, dangit you win

*Sigh*

Isaac, did you even read my last post?

isaactheman wrote: No, not that, the qoute itself being brought up,then again, I don't blame you for not getting it, it takes someone, with mental instability and ADHD to have even the slightest hope of being on the same page as me, cause i'm not even in the same book as the rest of the world.

Just as Luna said;

Luna6 wrote: Isaac, I've got some things to tell you:

You're a great person. I know you are. And somewhere, deep inside, you want attention. To be recognized as someone special. Lemme tell you, lying about yourself isn't going to get you there. Same goes to beating yourself up, trying to gain pity from others and yourself.

We all like you for who you are, so there is no need to put a facade of outlandish stories of insanity and self-achievments. You need to realize that, ASAP. We're not stupid, and you aren't either.

So let's put this nonsense behind us, shall we? No need to hide behind anything, Isaac. You're with friends here.

Just stop Isaac. We aren't fools. You aren't either. We know what happened. Lets learn and move on, mate.

I have been told by doctors that I have ADD but I didn't go for the medication. I chose to deal with it. Mental instability is my co-pilot, I used to have random violent outbursts of rage but I just decided to be mellow one day and not care anymore.

No matter how hard you try to be different there are always other people who have gone, are going,and will go through the same thing. So there's never a reason to try and glorify ones experience unless you do the same for all. We all have difficult and glowing experiences in our lives, and none are any more or less important than another.

Has my entire life since I first had to explain my ADHD to the outside world been a lie?
Has my insanity been just an explaination for it made up by my own subconcscious?
what is going on?
Self doubt?
I feel like my mind's gonna rip itself into shreds. Can it take the pressure?
How long is it gonna take to reprogram my mentallity?
Can my desire to be different in a different way allow this?
Can I take the pressure?
And the psycopathic episodes, are they a lie too?
Am I a lie?
Is everything a lie?

"The worst person you could ever lie to, is yourself."

Isaac, pleeaase take our advice seriously. It's for your benefit, and only yours.

Jacob10000 wrote: I have been told by doctors that I have ADD but I didn't go for the medication. I chose to deal with it. Mental instability is my co-pilot, I used to have random violent outbursts of rage but I just decided to be mellow one day and not care anymore.

No matter how hard you try to be different there are always other people who have gone, are going,and will go through the same thing. So there's never a reason to try and glorify ones experience unless you do the same for all. We all have difficult and glowing experiences in our lives, and none are any more or less important than another.

Yeah, I believe that people nowadays are too easily pushed to be diagnosed with ADD/ADHD. While I do and I have witnessed genuine cases of it -- there's too many who don't actually have it and are taking medicines that simply depress and annihilate their personalities. One may even suggest it's nothing more than a way for pharmaceutical corporations to rake in more money.

isaactheman wrote:
Has my entire life since I first had to explain my ADHD to the outside world been a lie?
Has my insanity been just an explaination for it made up by my own subconcscious?
what is going on?
Self doubt?
I feel like my mind's gonna rip itself into shreds. Can it take the pressure?
How long is it gonna take to reprogram my mentallity?
Can my desire to be different in a different way allow this?
Can I take the pressure?
And the psycopathic episodes, are they a lie too?
Am I a lie?
Is everything a lie?

You create the world around you. You choose whom you interact with and let into your life. You can make the best and worst of any situation.

The world ends with you.

To answer those many questions, no. It all experience, however more experience in life unlike dogfight doesn't give you a higher rank than others. So talking about experiences should not be to grade or degrade others, just to enlighten.

We should probably take any further arguments/discussions to a new topic or pm's to keep from cluttering our squad thread with anymore of this off topic stuff even though it is mostly between squad members.

Well, that's it then. I'm out of Kool-Aid.

*winks at Slenderman*

isaactheman wrote:
Has my entire life since I first had to explain my ADHD to the outside world been a lie?
Has my insanity been just an explaination for it made up by my own subconcscious?
what is going on?
Self doubt?
I feel like my mind's gonna rip itself into shreds. Can it take the pressure?
How long is it gonna take to reprogram my mentallity?
Can my desire to be different in a different way allow this?
Can I take the pressure?
And the psycopathic episodes, are they a lie too?
Am I a lie?
Is everything a lie?

Is this some joke? Are you trying to display your life as something terrible. That just fell upon you. Many people have worse.
Is my life a lie? No, and neither is mine. I can tell you just want reactions from us because you ask if you can take the pressure twice. If you'd like to see how my life was at its crappiest point I'll make a "introducing me, VortexIII." thread. Now let's let enigma build on enigma on this thread. If you would like to continue this conversation elsewhere be my guest.
Auf wiederzehn!

I feel free but bound at the same time.
I can't make sense of anything right now.
Normality, do I accept it?
I've never known normality or have I?
My mind, has it been a sort of safety blanket, a shell I can hide in?
Yes.......... I finally FEEL free, from my own mental prison...

But I feel like i've lost a part of myself in this change.
Anyway it goes, this IS the freedom I've needed for nearly 12 years. Thanks guys,
Isaac.

I wouldn't recommend sex, drugs or insanity for everyone, but they've always worked for me.

-Hunter S. Thompson

I am somewhat experienced with being outside of reality, its fun but it always nice when you get back to reality. Kinda like a vacation its great while you're there but always nice to be back home afterwards.

P.S. I have been known to self medicate at times. Lol

All I know is I just had my first bit of good sleep in years, I feel refreshed
I guess it's time to return to thread

[quote="Slenderman" post=42096[/quote]

You create the world around you. You choose whom you interact with and let into your life. You can make the best and worst of any situation.

The world ends with you.[/quote]

I like that.

hmmm just deleted a bunch of mush I just had here for Isaac. Poof gone.

I'll I know is that it's another glorious day in the [e] Corp! And it feels great. And I mean two dump fresh girls.

And that maybe to just add a quote from Cicero 45 BC ( aka bad ass Roman politition) copied from the Ipsum Lorem website:

"But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual teachings of the great explorer of the truth, the master-builder of human happiness. No one rejects, dislikes, or avoids pleasure itself, because it is pleasure, but because those who do not know how to pursue pleasure rationally encounter consequences that are extremely painful. Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?"

CalvinIsAwesome wrote:

I didnt realize these were polar until now

Black Flag wrote: I'll I know is that it's another glorious day in the [e] Corp! And it feels great. And I mean two dump fresh girls.

And that maybe to just add a quote from Cicero 45 BC ( aka bad ass Roman politition) copied from the Ipsum Lorem website:

"But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual teachings of the great explorer of the truth, the master-builder of human happiness. No one rejects, dislikes, or avoids pleasure itself, because it is pleasure, but because those who do not know how to pursue pleasure rationally encounter consequences that are extremely painful. Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?"

Glad to have you back! How've you been mate?

Mostly playing the game my friend...and I play Dogfight from time to too

How's the Corp been? Did you get a promotion...Global Moderator, or has that always been the case?(btw I really like the fact that we are only squad to have "Corp" in its name; that's so bad ass) Anyone else abandon ship?

Lots of guys left. All for MOM.

As for the GM thing, nah, that's not a promotion, just a change in how it's displayed. That's always been the official title.

Glad to see you back!

I never really left...I did fly as Ajax for a bit but never left enigma and never joined another squad. I wish I had more time to forum but I don't.

Luna6 wrote: Isaac, I've got some things to tell you:

You're a great person. I know you are. And somewhere, deep inside, you want attention. To be recognized as someone special. Lemme tell you, lying about yourself isn't going to get you there. Same goes to beating yourself up, trying to gain pity from others and yourself.

We all like you for who you are, so there is no need to put a facade of outlandish stories of insanity and self-achievments. You need to realize that, ASAP. We're not stupid, and you aren't either.

So let's put this nonsense behind us, shall we? No need to hide behind anything, Isaac. You're with friends here.

Very true

Had a lot of fun playing a round of bomb the carrier with Training Wheels! GG!

I can't believe I actually zero'd in my tank from such a distance. I'll try to play some more later if anyone's interested. I need to study for now -- big Cardiopulmonary Exam tomorrow.

Good luck on the exam!

I can fly in a few hours. I'm going to my brother's foorball game soon, but that'll end quickly.

Wait - cardio means heart. I thought you specialized in lungs?

Cardiopulmonary

Pulmonary as in lungs. I deal with heart & lungs.

Can't treat a patient if you don't know their blood gases, pressures, etc.

I flew with training wheels today as well. I'll get back in the air as soon as my battery gets full. Maybe we can get a training game goin in a lil while.

Right on.

Yeah, I can fly soon. More homework.... Ughhhl

Slenderman wrote: Cardiopulmonary

Pulmonary as in lungs. I deal with heart & lungs.

Can't treat a patient if you don't know their blood gases, pressures, etc.

This is kool slenderman, i deal with heart and lungs at work too by helping the doctor and the nurses. i draw blood gases and show the results to them.

Livingdead99 wrote:

Slenderman wrote: Cardiopulmonary

Pulmonary as in lungs. I deal with heart & lungs.

Can't treat a patient if you don't know their blood gases, pressures, etc.

This is kool slenderman, i deal with heart and lungs at work too by helping the doctor and the nurses. i draw blood gases and show the results to them.

Awesome!

You can't beat the med-field!