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A.A. & N.A. 11 years 1 month ago #208817

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Well a while back a good friend of mine reached out to this community, at a very low point in his life. To my surprise, many within this community of DogFight. Offered so much support, words of encouragement, and several started to open up and share their own stories of addiction.

However at some point his thread was deleted. I know it happened at one of the more "Rocky-er" moments with-in the forum, and to be honest.... When I saw it was deleted it nearly was the straw that broke the camels back for me.

I would get so much joy out of reading the quotes, stories, and words of encouragement. That were started to help one guy, but soon showed so many that. "WE ARE NOT ALONE" In a very short time it grew so fast, that I remember pointing out to him. It had 600 views in less then a week! With dozens of people sharing their own struggles and also how they got themselves thru the low times.

I have held off on trying to get this going again, for fear of it being removed, with out explanation again...... However my personal frustration, if that was to happen. Pales in comparison to the value of the HOPE, that it brought so many.

With the resent events that, one of my most admired actors has done to himself. Maybe a better understanding of the importance of talking about life's challenges, can shine thru here again.


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right on, YEMX! i have been looking forward to posting when i get to my two years. i'd like a thread to do it in! i think this thread is an a-ok idea. i am not sure what happened to the other one, but it's good to see this one up.

substance abuse affects most everybody in one way or another. we all have that in common. the idea is to share stories of hope and loss and support one another, right?


so what the heck? rock the discotheque!
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Hi. My name is Brian and I am an alcoholic. I had my last drink, March 17th 2009. St. Patricks Day!

I am here to help encourage anyone in any way that I can. I do know keeping problems to yourself, have a very hard time fixing themselves, so please reach out and trust that you can and will find help!
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horriblebreast wrote: right on, YEMX! i have been looking forward to posting when i get to my two years. i'd like a thread to do it in! i think this thread is an a-ok idea. i am not sure what happened to the other one, but it's good to see this one up.

substance abuse affects most everybody in one way or another. we all have that in common. the idea is to share stories of hope and loss and support one another, right?


Thank you very much buddy!!!!!

Very rewarding to have a response so fast, I did not even get my first post down!!!!

Kind of show us all how important this is!!!
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YEMX I remember posting my story on that thread. So sad to see it now gone into the netherrealm of the forum. I will repost it when I have more time.
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Joe alcoholic sober 3 years. My last drink was vodka in a water bottle at the hospital with a collapsed lung due to hydrothorax and a belly full fluid due to ascites a complication from chrossis. Started at 14 drank myself to death at 35. Doctor said I Wouldn't live a week second third doctor said the same. Even then all I cared about was when would they let me go home to die so I could get a drink. Transferred to Mt Sanai moved to number 1 in nyc on liver transplant list. 6 months waiting for a liver that we wouldn't come. God got involved and somehow someway my liver reverted back to child pugh score a. Sufficent enough to work for however long it decides to or as God wishes it too. Was a child pugh score c with a meld score of 134 no liver reverts back once it reaches that point.
Doctors ,my would be surgeon to this day mystified and just say it was a bonofide miracle. Just don't drink sometimes anything and I mean anything can happen.

Anyone ever needs a hand in this area im here to help. Those who climbed out of hell are responsible to pull the others out. Otherwise we lose what we got and will fall back in. There is no story that would shock me no matter how bad you think think it is. Anyone reading this that needs help just ask. I'm one of the ones that took the addiction all the way to the end of the road. I know where it ends all 3 ways. I can help God will do the rest. I pray for all of you everyday .
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WOW JOE!!!!!

WOW!

Thank you very much for sharing and keeping the reality of how much that draw can pull at you. Very inspiring, to read about someone you cut up with in some game. Has not doubt, had GOD move mountains for him!!!

Just an amazing story my friend, truly is!!!!
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DoGss wrote: Those who climbed out of hell are responsible to pull the others out. Otherwise we lose what we got and will fall back in.




true indeed dogss. that's a quote of the day.


so what the heck? rock the discotheque!
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i wouldnt ever concider myself to be a junkie but i liked to party ALOT. for many year i would consentrate on sex, drugs and rock n roll rather than my acidemics in school. in the last 4 years (im 21 btw) i have been to jail 8 times, i have a dwi on my record and lucky to survive a roll over at 100mph. i have two babies in heaven (miss carrages) and im currently single living at home, getting myself back on my feet. i used to think it was all fun n games, but the troubles kept starteling and getting worser and woser. last year i finialy said i tired of. i dont want to live that kinda life, i wanna be somebody. i want a career, house, marrage, family and over all my own well being. ive tried all kinds of drugs, and met all kinds of people, some ill never forget, some, ill never remember. ive had alot of good times awell, i wouldnt take it back. ive lived a hell of a live. the worse thing ive ever done, other than drinking and driving and using unprotexted sex was smoking the spice aka legal weed aka k-2. when it first come out, it was decent (not gonna lie) but the more time that went by, and the more people that started making it, the worse it got. ive had some of the worst expirence and trips u can imagine, really like a living hell. i was addicted, i sold all my video games and eventually my friend (who id smoke it with) started stealing from his parents just so we can get money to get it "thats when u know ur in the dirt". but finially i just got tired of the bad trips and i wanted to stop these ways. luckly for me my parents have always been there to help me and suppeort me. i now no longer do any drugs (exept smoke a lil weed here n there)and it rare that i even drink on occasion. i feel blessed ive been given another chance, and all i can say (that others sadly can say)is ive been there and done that.

now for anyone who reads this and is going through the same thing or is thinking about trying any of this. i strongly encourage u to not even go there. you will loose alot and it will be luck if u get out of it alive. just focuse on other things like i failed to. focus on ur acidemics, career, family, and life. its really not worth it in the end. u got one life to live, one body, and what u do to it determinds how long ur here. rather u feel this way now or not, i garentee u, when ur 50 (if lucky) and having complications ur gonna wish u could go back and change ur life.

these r my personal expirences and what ive done to get me where i am today. godbless
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Im Greg and im an alcoholic.

I started drinking in 1998 and thats when something bad happened that led me in 2001 to drink everyday. I havent had any health issues time wont heal because of it other that the scars on my wrist. I have seen the end of the road and am very familiar with that neck of the woods. I started looking for help back in october after my most recent bright idea that I needed the whole bottle of happy pills to make me feel happy. I have been to rehab twice since then the first time in november, relapsed around march, and back again around the beginning of may. Ive been sober just over 3 months this time. My story is long and deep and more involved than I choose to get into here.

Help is here. I found a friend here that is still just on the other end of the phone. I still dont know if he knows just how much help he was at the time and still is. All I had to do was be willing to talk.

I still struggle as does anyone who is fighting this. There are traps everywhere everyday that try to suck me back into it. The past still haunts. But I dont wake up feeling sick and tired looking for a drink.

I have tried to write something multiple times here and havent posted and this one im still not completly happy with. Im not a big talker or writer but I can listen as good as anyone. My main point is help is here if your looking for it.
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Hi......I am new here.........ok, here we go..............well then.......


Ed............sex addict..............


Marriage cured mé......

( sorry guys, couldn't resist..........I am still in denial, I guess.)

Nice to play Dogfight late at night, and having a drink or two....or three. (Never make MORAF that way!)
Reading your posts made me realise that I better not write anymore that I am going to pour myself a drink.....although it kinda feels like a confession, which relieves my concience in a way.

Don't think I am an addict,....but thanks for the warning you guys give that there is a very thin line.....and it will happen to the best of us.

But I ám a Dogfight addict! Shouldn't there be a thread for that? (Gaming addiction.......auch! ....better not talk about thát here, or this topic might get deleted. LOL)
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Best wishes for all of you, lovin' the quotes YEMX, keep it up! :)
Look at Robin Williams quotes, he has a couple good ones;
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Alright I have found ample time and am glad to repost my story.
My name is Nick and I was an addict and binge drinker. I have been sober for 4 years. My drug of choice was cocaine for about 7 months. I started smoking weed and drinking at 11. Kept it purely experimental until I reached 14. At that point the drinking became more consistent and the flow of drug usage increased as well. From 14-16 I stayed on a steady weekender type of flow until I ended my first significant relatuonship. Soon after I got into peddling for cash and using to celebrate the increase in cash flow. From the time between just after I turned 16 until the spring break of my senior year I probably made more money than I have in the years following (I'm 22 now). I was anything between cocaine and weed. I was also now drinking at school (my favorite trick was homemade margaritas in a Gatorade bottle). I had been approached by numerous friends and acquaintances that my behavior was going to land in two places, in the dirt or in an 8x10. I repeatedly ignored and pushed these thoughts aside for i was far too smart to ever have those things happen. I woke up the morning after that first of what was to be many spring break parties with a massive hangover. I had never had one beforehand due to a nice build up in tolerance. The everclear must have been the cause that particular evening. I went home and did my usual shower and after party cleansing to get ready for the next one not knowing I had already experienced my last one. I got out of the shower and cleaned off my mirror from the fog and it stuck me as I looked into my bathroom mirror that I didn't like the guy I saw standing there at 17. Call it providence, call it becoming brutally self aware, or call it having a seriously strong cup of bitch wake up, whatever it is you would like to say, it happened. I have been sober since that very day. I still deal with certain ticky tag addictions such as nicotine (in the form of Copenhagen) and my love for Dr. Pepper. I still have some beers every once in a while when I attend social events or when I am home relaxing I'll have a whiskey on the rocks, but the desire to continue to drink after I have enjoyed just a couple is gone. I personally credit this shift in circumstances to providence. I think God had watched me dick around long enough and said no more of this nonsense. So that's my story. Always willing to share and help, because although I didn't mention all things here, I did struggle. Always willing to talk about it with any one of you. Cheers and good riddance to the days of old.
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You all have overcome so much, and made so much progress :lol:
Grats
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OMG im famous lol. Nice work thanks wish i had that for the next time they ask me to be the speaker at a meeting. Its very motivational the way
you did it. Superb
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Thank you very much!

Your story has ran thu my head, sense I read it. Just kept seeing that vision in my mind, so thought I would take a shot at making it.

Send me a PM if you want me to try and send it somewhere for you.
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“From experience, I've realized that I cannot go back and make a brand-new start. But through A.A., I can start from now and make a brand-new end.”
― Alcoholics Anonymous

I dont go to meetings often at all anymore not because i dont feel they help, but because I went for so long and developed a much stronger relationship with my higher power who is God , that the desire has all but left me to drink. Though the memories of the past or even a smell can sometimes turn my insides out and that Demon starts with the whispers in your ear and the empty burning in your stomach screams for a drink...I always think back to that last drink i never let myself think of the other ones, I remember the last drink and then the Demon shuts the f up. Went to a meeting today met a guy right where i was 6 years ago diagnosed with liver damage and trying to quit before he loses his life he already lost his family and his soul he says. God works in mysterious ways and puts us where he wants us when he wants us. Got a new guy to Sponsor, be with him everyday till he gets through the bad times and then hopefully some good times are coming. Cant lose your soul only hurt it a bit. Thats there forever and can always be restored right up till your last drag of air.

Thanks for the Thread Yemx took balls, put yourself out there like that, without it I never go that meeting tonight and this guy never even thinks theres a way out. God bless you bro
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Mac Jones. Porn, drug, and self addict.

My whole life, I've been a dreamer. I've lived my life daydreaming about the future, coupled with studying hard, and practicing the things I love, so someday I could be the best.
I've been told by many people my whole life, that I'm a very talented individual.I'm tall, "good-looking", a good singer and musician, and I can write like a man knowledged beyond my years. I knew I had trouble with letting it get to my head, but I put on a very good "humility" act.
I often have had trouble keeping reality from my own world inside my head. When I was twelve, I was convinced I was an inter-dimensional spy. I knew I wasn't, but I wanted to be SO BAD, that I acted like I was hiding the fact that I was.
When I become obsessed with something, I get ADDICTED. It runs in the family. My Dad and grandfather were both raging alcoholics at points in their lives. My Dad survived it. Grandpa Jesse didn't. RIP Uncle Jessee.
So, when I was thirteen, my Dad (not an alcoholic) started a family restaurant. My Dad is one of the premier cooks in western Wisconsin. He has been running restaurants for 25 years, and this was his first try at owning one.
It was the greatest three years of my life, yet the worst. All my fake world, all my passion, went into Kaladis. I gave it my all for three years. Every day, I was there. I never understood that I was losing my childhood, my innocence. I got a smartphone, and the trouble started.
I was watching porn every night withing two months. I got my hands on weed through an ex-employee who was bitter at Dad.

And we failed. We struggled for three years. Kaladis was more of a home to me than my real home. We had a dozen employees, who wewere great friends with. Bob, Nina, Julie, Melanie... I still love those guys... But slowly and surely, we failed.

My Dad wanted SO badly for this to succeed. It killed him, to see what was without a doubt, his best endeavor, failing. And in 2013, he went back to drinking. To help the pain. To keep his sanity as the bills piled up. All he wanted was for this to work.
And in the meanwhile, he was losing me. I was up until midnight, hungrily finding the most perverted, disturbing, awful trash I could, and swallowing it. I still put on my act in the daytime. But at night, the internet was my playground.
I also couldn't understand why we were failing. I began retreating back into my mind, because it was sure as hell better than what I was living. But now my world consisted of death and hatred. I was a vigilante, brutally destroying those who get away with evil. Those kids in school who blackmail others. The bullies who make innocent girls commit suicide. My generation was the center of my anger.
When my girlfriend died, I still didn't snap. I continued to play the part. I went to church, went to school, garnered the praise of those who couldn't see the hatred in my eyes.

What I hated most of all was ignorance. I craved knowledge. And I learned. I have always been homeschooled. That's how I was able to work every day. I have a 3.8 GPA, and got a 29 on my ACT with no calculator, as a sophomore. I did weed only lightly. My imagination was my drug.

Then I found dogfight. I brought my spite and anger to the boards, and was told by Jackalope, Longrifle, and others to kindle shut the hell up. I couldn't believe it. The internet was my toy. Nobody fought back there, I thought.

And so I stayed. Kaladis finally closed in January, and I started the process of figuring out how to be a teenager. I'm still really bad at it.

On the same day, I admitted to my Dad that I was an addict. To myself. And he told me he was drinking.

So there we were, father and son, two individuals who were completely broken. We'd just watched three years get flushed down the drain.
We both quit our addictions. I haven't even been tempted to go back. I don't even watch soft porn.

But my mind was still damaged. And so I went to the place that I had first been resisted. Here. This forum. I made my mistakes, and still do, but remember. I've got a broken heart, and an even more broken mind.

I was a real d-bag at first. I still can be. But I'm working hard to return. Dogfight is the only game I play. It's where I make my real friends. I have three friends outside of dogfight. In the world.

So now, in real life... Well, I don't know what I'm like. I make people smile. People in my life, in my new job, are proud of me. They say I'll go far. The only thing in my way, they say, is myself.

And they're right.



I'm sorry if this was written in a poor and disjointed manner. I just started writing, and it all spilled out. I didn't have my usual time to think out what I was going to say.
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You are very gifted! It shines thru you into your words! From what little I know of you and reading what you just wrote. I am getting a very clear understanding, why some "bigWIG's" around here admire you so much.

MAN BE THAT SUPER HERO SPY!!! But use it only for good, to help lift others. Not as a gift to harm the bad, but to educate the good. "Feed a man, fish for a day" makes you a nice guy.... "Teach a man to fish, for himself" makes you a true leader!!!!!! (In my book!!!!! Lol)

You see, when I first started playing this game. I could barley find where the dang (period went), my spelling is atroshiouse <---(REALLY BAD)--« and them little (comma) thingy-mah-jigs.... Forget about it!!!!!! I drop them in after, every 4th, 5th, and, or 6th word!!!!
It sucks, but it is what it is.....
I do try very hard to be better at it and for the most part everyone is nice enough to let me get away with it (I KNOW IT DRIVES YOU SUPER SMART PEOPLE CRAZY!!!! Lol thanks for not busting my balls over it).

Ok something I have been trying to get out for a couple of days......
DoGss story, has hit me like a ton of bricks!!!!
As I was reading it, for the second, third, or fourth time. I just kept thinking "this story needs to be in the BigBook (A.A. Bible)". Now........
I am going way out on a limb, even thinking that all parties involved would be interested in, taking on such a challenge. How would you (Mac and DoGss) feel about, seeing if we could make it work? Think on it, and get with one another or if it is to much to soon? That is fine too!!!

Well anyways..... (Was in DMV for an hour when I read this.... Parking lot writing back. For another hour...... ) I WILL GET BETTER, I WLL, I CAN, AND I WILL!!! Dag-Nab-It!!!!

Hope you have a great day and be strong for yourself. But be a "SUPER HERO" for your DAD (get him in the game)!!
GOD BLESS YOU GUYS! You all have really put a much needed spark in my soul!!!!
Crazy all from some silly game!!!

P.s. Thanks again zuperman!!!!!
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YEMX wrote: WOW
You are very gifted! It shines thru you into your words! From what little I know of you and reading what you just wrote. I am getting a very clear understanding, why some "bigWIG's" around here admire you so much.

MAN BE THAT SUPER HERO SPY!!! But use it only for good, to help lift others. Not as a gift to harm the bad, but to educate the good. "Feed a man, fish for a day" makes you a nice guy.... "Teach a man to fish, for himself" makes you a true leader!!!!!! (In my book!!!!! Lol)

You see, when I first started playing this game. I could barley find where the dang (period went), my spelling is atroshiouse <---(REALLY BAD)--« and them little (comma) thingy-mah-jigs.... Forget about it!!!!!! I drop them in after, every 4th, 5th, and, or 6th word!!!!
It sucks, but it is what it is.....
I do try very hard to be better at it and for the most part everyone is nice enough to let me get away with it (I KNOW IT DRIVES YOU SUPER SMART PEOPLE CRAZY!!!! Lol thanks for not busting my balls over it).

Ok something I have been trying to get out for a couple of days......
DoGss story, has hit me like a ton of bricks!!!!
As I was reading it, for the second, third, or fourth time. I just kept thinking "this story needs to be in the BigBook (A.A. Bible)". Now........
I am going way out on a limb, even thinking that all parties involved would be interested in, taking on such a challenge. How would you (Mac and DoGss) feel about, seeing if we could make it work? Think on it, and get with one another or if it is to much to soon? That is fine too!!!

Well anyways..... (Was in DMV for an hour when I read this.... Parking lot writing back. For another hour...... ) I WILL GET BETTER, I WLL, I CAN, AND I WILL!!! Dag-Nab-It!!!!

Hope you have a great day and be strong for yourself. But be a "SUPER HERO" for your DAD (get him in the game)!!
GOD BLESS YOU GUYS! You all have really put a much needed spark in my soul!!!!
Crazy all from some silly game!!!

P.s. Thanks again zuperman!!!!!


That's an honor for you to say that truly. Unfortunately when telling my story the whole way through not just the outline...it gets pretty intense. I was not a nice guy buy any means I had a severely warped value system but one which I believed in strongly, passed on from my father from his father and so on.

When I do speak at a meeting ill usually do it in a parole halfway house or in a detox or even prison meeting. I believe just like With God in AA we all are appointed to a certain area in which we can do the most good.

The Brutality in my life and hence in my story carrys well to the fore mentioned audience because they can hear my words they know my heart was the same as theirs, and they only become interested or intrigued by me when they see the change. They wonder it has to be real in order to change someone like me. My priest 3 years ago told me there's no better story then the villain becoming the good guy. I try to be a good guy but I wrestle with demons all day long the same as everyone. When im at the jail or salvation army or any halfway house, and one of the guys says thanks alot joe..I tell them don't thank me thank God..me ,well without God my hand never came out to help, only hurt. But Ill have the guys record my story next time I speak and send it to you pm or email yemx. If you'd like it.
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YEMX wrote: Well a while back a good friend of mine reached out to this community, at a very low point in his life. To my surprise, many within this community of DogFight. Offered so much support, words of encouragement, and several started to open up and share their own stories of addiction.

However at some point his thread was deleted. I know it happened at one of the more "Rocky-er" moments with-in the forum, and to be honest.... When I saw it was deleted it nearly was the straw that broke the camels back for me.

I would get so much joy out of reading the quotes, stories, and words of encouragement. That were started to help one guy, but soon showed so many that. "WE ARE NOT ALONE" In a very short time it grew so fast, that I remember pointing out to him. It had 600 views in less then a week! With dozens of people sharing their own struggles and also how they got themselves thru the low times.

I have held off on trying to get this going again, for fear of it being removed, with out explanation again...... However my personal frustration, if that was to happen. Pales in comparison to the value of the HOPE, that it brought so many.

With the resent events that, one of my most admired actors has done to himself. Maybe a better understanding of the importance of talking about life's challenges, can shine thru here again.


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YEMX you are solid! I never met you but I love you man. Thank you!

Great quote by Emerson by the way, I want to live like that, and it appears you are living like that.

This thread has touched me deeply and I want to thank everyone who had the courage to post here and tell their story.
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That's an honor for you to say that truly. Unfortunately when telling my story the whole way through not just the outline...it gets pretty intense. I was not a nice guy buy any means I had a severely warped value system but one which I believed in strongly, passed on from my father from his father and so on.

When I do speak at a meeting ill usually do it in a parole halfway house or in a detox or even prison meeting. I believe just like With God in AA we all are appointed to a certain area in which we can do the most good.

The Brutality in my life and hence in my story carrys well to the fore mentioned audience because they can hear my words they know my heart was the same as theirs, and they only become interested or intrigued by me when they see the change. They wonder it has to be real in order to change someone like me. My priest 3 years ago told me there's no better story then the villain becoming the good guy. I try to be a good guy but I wrestle with demons all day long the same as everyone. When im at the jail or salvation army or any halfway house, and one of the guys says thanks alot joe..I tell them don't thank me thank God..me ,well without God my hand never came out to help, only hurt. But Ill have the guys record my story next time I speak and send it to you pm or email yemx. If you'd like it.



Well Joe, you know as well as I do....
Not that many people make it into A.A. while they are on a winning streak. Most are hopeless and alone. That is what makes your story even more powerful and could be the one story that is needed to help others compare in. Letting them know, they can make it out of their situation. It also lets the rest of us know.... (Yet) I never let it get that bad YET. I have not been caught YET.

I have zero doubt that you softened it up as you wrote it. I would also like it very much if you could get me a recording of it. I have not been this uplifted or motivated about much of anything over the last few years. The truth about "giving back" has really, inspired me and given me the drive I have been needing. To set new life goal and start working towards them.

Life is fast and don't know about you but, I have to many "yah I want to do this, or go there, or learn about that", in my life. So I am using this gift (of inspiration) that I have been given to....

"CARPE DIEM"
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YEMX wrote:

That's an honor for you to say that truly. Unfortunately when telling my story the whole way through not just the outline...it gets pretty intense. I was not a nice guy buy any means I had a severely warped value system but one which I believed in strongly, passed on from my father from his father and so on.

When I do speak at a meeting ill usually do it in a parole halfway house or in a detox or even prison meeting. I believe just like With God in AA we all are appointed to a certain area in which we can do the most good.

The Brutality in my life and hence in my story carrys well to the fore mentioned audience because they can hear my words they know my heart was the same as theirs, and they only become interested or intrigued by me when they see the change. They wonder it has to be real in order to change someone like me. My priest 3 years ago told me there's no better story then the villain becoming the good guy. I try to be a good guy but I wrestle with demons all day long the same as everyone. When im at the jail or salvation army or any halfway house, and one of the guys says thanks alot joe..I tell them don't thank me thank God..me ,well without God my hand never came out to help, only hurt. But Ill have the guys record my story next time I speak and send it to you pm or email yemx. If you'd like it.



Well Joe, you know as well as I do....
Not that many people make it into A.A. while they are on a winning streak. Most are hopeless and alone. That is what makes your story even more powerful and could be the one story that is needed to help others compare in. Letting them know, they can make it out of their situation. It also lets the rest of us know.... (Yet) I never let it get that bad YET. I have not been caught YET.

I have zero doubt that you softened it up as you wrote it. I would also like it very much if you could get me a recording of it. I have not been this uplifted or motivated about much of anything over the last few years. The truth about "giving back" has really, inspired me and given me the drive I have been needing. To set new life goal and start working towards them.

Life is fast and don't know about you but, I have to many "yah I want to do this, or go there, or learn about that", in my life. So I am using this gift (of inspiration) that I have been given to....

"CARPE DIEM"


Oh Absolutely. Im down for whatever. God put do not be afraid 365 times in the bible thats a daily reminder to live fearless. Yolo
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YEMX you are solid! I never met you but I love you man. Thank you!

Great quote by Emerson by the way, I want to live like that, and it appears you are living like that.

This thread has touched me deeply and I want to thank everyone who had the courage to post here and tell their story.


Love you too buddy!
I really appreciate your kind words. We all have a story to tell, (all as important as the next) each with is up's and down's. My whole point in getting this thread going again. Was to show the HOPE that we all can find, as we all have struggles in life, and sharing is the first part of finding that help.

The beautiful thing about this game, we all love so much. Is we get the chance to interact with one another. From the time I started playing this game. I caught on to a good amount of maturity amongst most of the players. This makes it a good environment to build friendships and relationships in a way like no other.

So to you and anyone that might have read something here, and would like help with it. Please speak up and send one of us, that you might have even the smallest of bonds with, a PM or anything that you feel comfortable with.

Even if this is just "a small seed" that gets set in the mind of someone today, and never gives it another thought. Till years down the road, as life gives them struggles that little seed starts to grow and make sence. That would be some kind of powerful!
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YEMX wrote: WOW
You are very gifted! It shines thru you into your words! From what little I know of you and reading what you just wrote. I am getting a very clear understanding, why some "bigWIG's" around here admire you so much.

MAN BE THAT SUPER HERO SPY!!! But use it only for good, to help lift others. Not as a gift to harm the bad, but to educate the good. "Feed a man, fish for a day" makes you a nice guy.... "Teach a man to fish, for himself" makes you a true leader!!!!!! (In my book!!!!! Lol)

You see, when I first started playing this game. I could barley find where the dang (period went), my spelling is atroshiouse <---(REALLY BAD)--« and them little (comma) thingy-mah-jigs.... Forget about it!!!!!! I drop them in after, every 4th, 5th, and, or 6th word!!!!
It sucks, but it is what it is.....
I do try very hard to be better at it and for the most part everyone is nice enough to let me get away with it (I KNOW IT DRIVES YOU SUPER SMART PEOPLE CRAZY!!!! Lol thanks for not busting my balls over it).

Ok something I have been trying to get out for a couple of days......
DoGss story, has hit me like a ton of bricks!!!!
As I was reading it, for the second, third, or fourth time. I just kept thinking "this story needs to be in the BigBook (A.A. Bible)". Now........
I am going way out on a limb, even thinking that all parties involved would be interested in, taking on such a challenge. How would you (Mac and DoGss) feel about, seeing if we could make it work? Think on it, and get with one another or if it is to much to soon? That is fine too!!!

Well anyways..... (Was in DMV for an hour when I read this.... Parking lot writing back. For another hour...... ) I WILL GET BETTER, I WLL, I CAN, AND I WILL!!! Dag-Nab-It!!!!

Hope you have a great day and be strong for yourself. But be a "SUPER HERO" for your DAD (get him in the game)!!
GOD BLESS YOU GUYS! You all have really put a much needed spark in my soul!!!!
Crazy all from some silly game!!!

P.s. Thanks again zuperman!!!!!

I appreciate the kindness and praise, Yemmy, I really do, but what I've shared here is the extent to which I'll be going for now. You guys and my father are the only ones in the world who know my whole story.

My Dad has his own way of coping. I have seven brothers and sisters, a large family, and my brother is actually buried in the depths of the game.
My Dad is not a gamer, by any account. I tell him about you guys, and I think he is proud of my accomplishments here, but he won't be joining anytime soon.
I haven't even revealed my real name (spoiler: it isn't Mac). It's just something I don't do on the internet.
If you don't mind, I'll be trying to keep my real life and dogfight life separate, except for occasional instances such as earlier.

Like I've told some before: the real world is where I work on my heart: this is where I work on my mind.

Thank you all,
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You're getting predictable, guys. You can do better, right?
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Great job Mac, I very much appreciate your story contribution to this thread. It's another story which ended up better than it started! :)
IN YOUR OVEN OR ON YOUR SIX!

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