Cue Ball wrote: Thanks Nash, I'm Cue Ball and a year ago I was hit with narcolepsy which began to get better. Unfortuatly I haven't been able to work and refuse to give in just so I can get disability. I have faith in God. The last couple of months I got back into an old habit from the eighties, crystal meth. I used it to keep the constant beating down of this unknown problem. Now I'm addicted. I found a place that helps people in my position, but it's back logged. I could use prayers that God moves things a long so I can get the help I need from this two month residential program. My heart and prayers go out to your struggles with weight. I'm one who does not gain weight, but my adopted daughter struggles with it. It tears my heart into peices. I also have a two other kids. I want so much to be the dad they know, but I can't barely function. I'm not a weak minded man, but this has brought me two my knees. Probably were God wants me, but still it's emotionally terrifying, which is why I dogfight, to free my mind. Thanks for listening. Your Friend in God. Peace.
Cueball,
I'd like to invite you to visit the "aa na" thread if you'd like to visit and drop a line. Not unlike yourself, my addiction came about from battling a medical problem - chronic pain. I've been in pain every minute of every day for almost 6 years now, and only in the last few months has it started to improve. I want to be the dad my two children remember as well, the happy, patient, loving person they used to know - that's a person I miss bitterly, and I don't know that he'll ever be back for any of us. So many times the constant pain has started to drive me insane, and so many times my beloved wife and children have pulled me back from the edge - I'd like to give them back the person they love but I just can't seem to get it together - yet.
I hope you find your way as I try to find mine, and wish I could offer something better than "hang in there", but its all I have.
The aa na thread has helped me - posting about my addiction here, to those I've come to respect and value as friends, gave me that little extra motivation I needed to get started in the right direction. Of course, your situation is different but the thread is there if you'd like to visit